MHR #13

To My Love

by Carl Kramer

So cold and dark, so empty and alone,

never knowing what real love was.

So fragile and closed, so hateful and cruel,

never to open my heart to anyone.

And then there was you.

So scared, so new,not knowing what was to come.

I gave you what little I had left.

Hoping that you would want me the way I am.

Timid and frightened, wanting to love again.

And then there was you.

A little relief from the beating that my heart took, trying to remember what it was like.

You showed me that it was real and true.

Your touch so gentle, you saw right through.

All the pain and distrust disappeared that day the love consumed me.

Felt so perfect, so right.

Still hesitant to let anyone see who I really was.

And then there was you.

Believing in me, trusting me, loving me unconditionally.

Letting go of all the fear, anger, and regret.

Knowing that it's ok just to be who I am.

Crying, laughing, talking, sharing emotions that I tried to hide for so long.

All because there was you.

This was written by my husband. He really is a great man. We've been through so much, but each day we get stronger.

MHR #12 How we met

(I'm slacking, so you get My Husband Rocks Friday on a Saturday!!)

Today, the topic is how we met.

Our story is not easy, it's been a very bumpy road. Every couple endures pain and struggling, we were no different. Marriage is a blessing, but it's also hard work.

August of 2001.

I was working at a restaurant as a server. I was only 20 years old, and in a very selfish state of mind. Still partying, using questionable substances, but I knew it was starting to get old.

Carl started working at said restaurant as a bus boy. He had dyed blonde hair (this was 7 years ago, he thought it looked good), and had a severe bad boy look (more of the 'thuggish' look, actually). He was not my usually style at all, but he was cute.

What really got me was the way he worked. The bus boys at said restaurant worked their tails off for the servers. Busing tables, carrying large trays, getting needed items from the kitchen, making them salads, just about everything. He was a very hard worker. Very respectable, and did I mention cute?

I was very shy around him, I don't know why since he was not my style at all. I had two friends that I partied with frequently that worked there also. I got up the nerve to ask him over to their apartment. He said yes!

Carl and two of his buddies showed up at the party. (I was seriously giddy, there was just something about him) We talked and his buddies hit it off with my friends. We all had a good time. Nothing happened that evening, it was honestly just a good time had by all.

I find out later through some people at work that Carl had a girlfriend. 'Well that sucks' is all I could think.

Well we went about our work and nothing happened for about a week.

Until his friend decided to tell Carl's then girlfriend that he had messed around with me at that party. Huh? Seriously? I laughed.

I laughed even harder when I found out she broke up with him because of him messing around with me. Seriously? I've always hated that drama crap.

September 2001

He invited me to a bonfire at his friends' house, because he was single now (*eye roll*)

We really hit it off that night. We talked about all the problems his girlfriend and him were having, and the fact that his friend was an ass for trying to start drama.

That night we had our first kiss.

Then it was us from then on.

(ex tried to start more trouble down the road, but all I could do was thank her for believing the lies.)

MHR #11

I have done a My Husband Rocks post in a few weeks. *bad wifey*

I'm not the most easy person to live with. *gasp* I know.

He's still here, and still trying to make me laugh.

Since we have two little gremlins (said with the utmost affection, of course), we don't get to go out together very much.

I bought us ticket to go see Jeff Dunham on Sunday Nov.30Th.

Holy crap he's freaking hysterical!

Here's a taste if you've never heard of him:



None the less, we're very excited for a REAL date night! Honestly we haven't had one in FOREVER!!

I know he's excited because this is his favorite comedian, and he gets to spend the evening with me without the gremlins underfoot!! YAY!!